Blah.

In Jesus name we press on....

Well y'all, today is just "one of those days"....pretty blah. Nothing too exciting, or sad or anything....just boring really.

One of my friends (Amy) cut her hand open REAL bad at work today (she works with me at the bagel shop)....she had to have stitches, and she cut into some of the nerves (which means she needs to see a specialist to sew her nerves back together.) Ouch! Thanks for your prayers....I'm finally learning NOT to cut my hands....but I fully believe that it is your prayers and God's grace that caused me not to be in the same situation as Amy. If you don't mind, send up a prayer for her right now, it's not fun to have to go to the hospital when you're so far from home!

It's easy sometimes to just go through the motions of life, instead of really living. I caught myself doing that today....I wasn't thinking or feeling anything....I was just going through the motions of work, dance, devotions....like a robot. I'm not TOO worried...this happens to me on a consistent basis.....I think it's part of life (at least part of mine).

This morning at B. Mag devotions, Lydia read something in the Screwtape letters that was REALLY encouraging.

"But you now see that the Irresistible and the Indisputable are the two weapons which the very nature of His scheme forbids Him to use. Merely to over-ride a human will (as His felt presence in any but the faintest and most mitigated degree would certainly do) would be for Him useless. He cannot ravish. He can only woo. For His ignoble idea is to eat the cake and have it; the creatures are to be one with Him, but yet themselves; merely to cancel them, or assimilate them, will not serve. He is prepared to do a little overriding at the beginning. He will set them off with communications of His presence which, though faint, seem great to them, with emotional sweetness, and easy conquest over temptation. But He never allows this state of affairs to last long. Sooner or later He withdraws, if not in fact, at least from their conscious experience, all those supports and incentives. He leaves the creature to stand up on its own legs—to carry out from the will alone duties which have lost all relish. It is during such trough periods, much more than during the peak periods, that it is growing into the sort of creature He wants it to be. Hence the prayers offered in the state of dryness are those which please Him best. We can drag our patients along by continual tempting, because we design them only for the table, and the more their will is interfered with the better. He cannot "tempt" to virtue as we do to vice. He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles. Do not be deceived, Wormwood. Our cause is never more in danger, than when a human, no longer desiring, but intending, to do our Enemy's will, looks round upon a universe from which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken, and still obeys."

Amen?? Here I am, having a blah sort of day. God doesn't seem very close....but yet I know he is. I have a choice, I can be frustrated that he seems far away...and ignore him...or I can still obey.